Deathwish

L'Invitation
Au
Suicide Suicide Deffere No4 LP
including 12 page booklet in English and French 1984
Contempo Records Conte 137 LP including 12 page
booklet in English and French 1990
Contempo Records Conte 137 Limited Edition clear
vinyl LP including 12 page booklet in English and French 1990
Contempo Records Contedisc 137 CD including 12
page booklet 1990
Contempo Records Contape 137 Cassette including
12 page booklet 1990
Normal Records Normal 84 gatefold LP 1990
Normal Records Normal 84 CD CD including 12 page
booklet in English and French 1990
Engineered
by Randy Burns
Mastered
by Jeff Sanders at Kendin Recorders.
Recorded
at Orange County Recorders in 1981
Dogs was released on the Hell Comes to Your House compilation album in 1981
Musicians: Rozz Williams (vocals), Rikk Agnew (guitar), James McGearty (bass), George Belanger (drums)
The Contempo Records clear vinyl LP is a Limited Edition of 1000
LOVE OF HOSPITAL. THE NIGHT.
Oh
queen
of pain, who beams blood
As a
royal
ruby throws a red flame,
The
forceps,
which brought you into a world of shame
With an
obscene sign must have marked your body.
In
your
eye there glints a satanic will,
And
murder
squats under a velvet of fire,
As in the
depths of a loving blue sky
On
perfumed
winds floats an ironic evil.
And
that
is why, conquered by the elegance
Of your
divine form and its black hates,
In your
I love, child of sinister fates,
Your
fascinating
Horror and strangeness.
Iwan
Gilkin
DEATH
Death
has
tasted blood
In the
Cabaret of the three coffins.
Death
put
down on the counter
A black
crown,
And then
went on her way.
"It's
for
the candles and the mourning"
And then
went on her way.
Death
went
on her way
Very
slowly
To look
for the last rites.
They
saw
coming back the priest
And the
choirboys,
Too late,
To the
house
Whose
windows
were closed.
Death
has
tasted blood
She is
drunk with it.
Emile
Verhaeren
EVIL PRAYERS
May
your
mouth be blessed for it is of no worth!
It has
the taste of new roses, and the taste of old earth,
It has
sucked on the dark juices of flowers and rushes;
When it
speaks one hears as the unfaithful sound of rushes,
And this
cruel ruby, bloodied and all coldness,
Is the
last wound of Jesus on the cross.
May
your
soul be blessed for it is corruption complete!
Proud
emerald
that has fallen onto the paving stones of the street,
Its pride
has mingled with the smells of mud,
And I
have
just crushed into that glorious mud,
On the
paving stones of the street, which is a path on the cross,
The last
thought of Jesus on the cross.
Remy
de
Gourmont
THE VAMPIRE
You
that
like a cut of the sword
Into my
pained heart have come headling;
You thas
as strong as a herd
Of
demons,
have come, mad and readied,
Into
my
humiliated soul
To make
your bed and your domain;
-
Infamous
one to whom I am bethrothed
Like a
convict to his chain,
As
the
game
to the gambler
As to the
bottle the drunken drug
As to the
carrion the worm and bug
- Damn
you, may you damn her!
I
begged
the sword so swift
To
conquer
my dear liberty
And told
foul poison to make a gift
Of aid
to my fear and inability
Alas
the
poison and the sword
Saw all
with disdain and said to me
"You are
not worthy to be heard
And taken
from your cursed slavery,
Imbecile!
if from her empire
We
delivered
you by our strife
Your
kisses
would bring back to life
The
corpse
of your vampire!"
Charles
Baudelaire
SOUL OF DIRT (Extract d'Ames d'Automme)
For Jean de Tinan.
In autumn or in dirt, rather in dirt, for where has she not been from the great glass halls where women are sold for twenty francs and sometimes tewnty-five louis for flesh at a penny, Folies-Bergere and the Casino de Paris, as far as the wings with their foul air of big and small theatres, from the studio of the lodger of Mr Claretie with its water-colours signed by famous name to the suffocating box of the cafe-concert diva, she has seen everything, haunted everything and gone into everything in depth.
The filthy and superb slut of digs and hovels who are at some other time had been Messaline on all the squares of Suburre, she had been in modern Paris where her buggy is as well known in the large lonely avenues of the Gobelins district as in the stinking alleys of the Villette. Her mask belongs to a caricature, with its thin profile and skinny bones, its depraved eyes of a schoolgirl who has read Virgil and Theocritus too young, her hips and flat chest belong no more to Forain than to Lunel; they belong to the public, as public as her acts and thoughts and words with their punch and her angry bored insolence, which has kept the street gossips fed for then years. In turn a kept woman and a woman who kept, she has squandered fortunes, melted down millions in the crucible of here boredom, flaunted with actresses, clow and princesses and, as did Pauline Borghese long ago in the studio of Canova, she has posed in the nude and nothing else in the cruel novels of Rachilde and Mendes.
If only she was amused by it, but not even that. It's through weakness, by boredom that this jaded soul has been lost, that incurable and despairing boredom which is the real secret plague of her life and which has made her cry out and proclaim loud and clear throughout the world the vices she doesn't even have, the elegant anomalies that for a while it was done to flaunt in the upper circles where one amuses oneself, the vices of posing and parading that made her famous in the Acacias as well as in Montmartre, on the sports beaches and in the spas where one plays, and which from scandal to scandal, from guardian to divorce, and from asylum to police court, where she almost sat down in the middle of the ninth chamber, have brought her to where she is now, today, to the nervous breakdown, to morphine, to the cerebral lesions which make her mistake cruelty for love and mix loving sadism with the macabre.
Oh! the bad wine of strong emotions, the kind whose intoxication stunts the will and prepares the way for depressives and maniacs, woe betide he who lives on others' nerves much more than his own, and whose senses only awaken with the violent commotions of the brain.
And
that
is where she is now.
After
having
slipped as far down as sadism and trying to revive the revolting
insipidness
of daily joys by the salt taste of a drop of blood, she has arrived at
the macabre: and when the girlfriend whom she feeds (for she now has
only
platonic friendships) senses that the purse of this miserable, woman is
tightening when she hears calls for loans, what does the gentle
Hippolyte
do to soften and bring back to her that affection which is all the more
generous now she is aflame?
Quick, a word to the undertaker and an order for funeral invitations and the card announcing the death of the less-loved one is immediately sent to the boarding-house of the Soul of Dirt who unfolds it, shudders, throws on her otter coat and runs, hurrying to the hotel of the deceased who is already laid out in silver lame sheets, with undertakers and hearse in front of the door.
Soul of Dirt, demented, climbs the two floors, flings open the doors, and in the loved one's boudoir, transformed into a mortuary chamber, finds Hippolyte lying in the coffin, in a robe of white silk, candles all around the burial wreaths and bouquets of white lilac, arrangements of violets and of mauve orchids in the gloom of mourning crape; in short all the decor of a sumptuous death.
The deceased is herself artistically made-up, already decomposing under her white theatre powder, with adroit touches of blush: the hands are as rigid as those of a corpse and the faint smell of phenol floats through the bedroom; the coroner has just left and all they were waiting for before nailing down the coffin was the arrival of madame. At this point Soul of Dirt comes to life, falls to her knees, sobs, with kisses, tears and sweat she wets the painted cheeks and the hands of the deceased, waters down the make-up, creases the shroud, and Hippolyte, gently awakening, props herself up in the coffin and smiles hello again to the reconquered Soul of Dirt: a small scene of theatre, a theatre from beyond the grave, which is renewed three times a month and which, although tricked and organised in advance, delights Soul of Dirt with a childish joy.
Then she feels her heart.
Wednesday, the 9th of November, 1892
Jean Lorrain