Deathwish

L'Invitation Au Suicide Suicide Deffere No4 LP including 12 page booklet in English and French 1984
Contempo Records Conte 137 LP including 12 page booklet in English and French 1990
Contempo Records Conte 137 Limited Edition clear vinyl LP including 12 page booklet in English and French 1990
Contempo Records Contedisc 137 CD including 12 page booklet 1990
Contempo Records Contape 137 Cassette including 12 page booklet 1990
Normal Records Normal 84 gatefold LP 1990
Normal Records Normal 84 CD CD including 12 page booklet in English and French 1990


  • Deathwish
  • Romeo's Distress (version)
  • Dogs
  • Desperate Hell
  • Spiritual Cramp (version)
  • Cavity (version)

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     Produced by Mike Patton

    Engineered by Randy Burns
    Mastered by Jeff Sanders at Kendin Recorders.
    Recorded at Orange County Recorders in 1981

    Dogs was released on the Hell Comes to Your House compilation album in 1981

    Musicians: Rozz Williams (vocals), Rikk Agnew (guitar), James McGearty (bass), George Belanger (drums)

    The Contempo Records clear vinyl LP is a Limited Edition of 1000

    Cover: Who Shall Deliver Me by Fernand Khnopff
    Cover concept: Mary Lemeur, Yann Farcy and Gerard Rabel
    Choice of texts and illustrations: Mary Lemeur and Yann Farcy
    Booklet illustrations: Portrait de Stuart Merril by Jean Delville, Death, Part II: Plague by Max Klinger,
     Eve and the Future: Third Future
    by Max Klinger, A Life: Suffer by Max Klinger and La fiancee de la mort by Alfred Kubin
    Translations: Henry Gibson

     

     

    LOVE OF HOSPITAL. THE NIGHT.

    Oh queen of pain, who beams blood
    As a royal ruby throws a red flame,
    The forceps, which brought you into a world of shame
    With an obscene sign must have marked your body.

    In your eye there glints a satanic will,
    And murder squats under a velvet of fire,
    As in the depths of a loving blue sky
    On perfumed winds floats an ironic evil.

    And that is why, conquered by the elegance
    Of your divine form and its black hates,
    In your I love, child of sinister fates,
    Your fascinating Horror and strangeness.

    Iwan Gilkin
     
     
     

    DEATH

    Death has tasted blood
    In the Cabaret of the three coffins.

    Death put down on the counter
    A black crown,
    And then went on her way.

    "It's for the candles and the mourning"
    And then went on her way.

    Death went on her way
    Very slowly
    To look for the last rites.

    They saw coming back the priest
    And the choirboys,
    Too late,
    To the house
    Whose windows were closed.

    Death has tasted blood
    She is drunk with it.

    Emile Verhaeren
     
     
     

    EVIL PRAYERS

    May your mouth be blessed for it is of no worth!
    It has the taste of new roses, and the taste of old earth,
    It has sucked on the dark juices of flowers and rushes;
    When it speaks one hears as the unfaithful sound of rushes,
    And this cruel ruby, bloodied and all coldness,
    Is the last wound of Jesus on the cross.

    May your soul be blessed for it is corruption complete!
    Proud emerald that has fallen onto the paving stones of the street,
    Its pride has mingled with the smells of mud,
    And I have just crushed into that glorious mud,
    On the paving stones of the street, which is a path on the cross,
    The last thought of Jesus on the cross.

    Remy de Gourmont
     
     
     

    THE VAMPIRE

    You that like a cut of the sword
    Into my pained heart have come headling;
    You thas as strong as a herd
    Of demons, have come, mad and readied,

    Into my humiliated soul
    To make your bed and your domain;
    - Infamous one to whom I am bethrothed
    Like a convict to his chain,

    As the game to the gambler
    As to the bottle the drunken drug
    As to the carrion the worm and bug
    - Damn you, may you damn her!

    I begged the sword so swift
    To conquer my dear liberty
    And told foul poison to make a gift
    Of aid to my fear and inability

    Alas the poison and the sword
    Saw all with disdain and said to me
    "You are not worthy to be heard
    And taken from your cursed slavery,

    Imbecile! if from her empire
    We delivered you by our strife
    Your kisses would bring back to life
    The corpse of your vampire!"

    Charles Baudelaire
     
     
     

    SOUL OF DIRT (Extract d'Ames d'Automme)

    For Jean de Tinan.

    In autumn or in dirt, rather in dirt, for where has she not been from the great glass halls where women are sold for twenty francs and sometimes tewnty-five louis for flesh at a penny, Folies-Bergere and the Casino de Paris, as far as the wings with their foul air of big and small theatres, from the studio of the lodger of Mr Claretie with its water-colours signed by famous name to the suffocating box of the cafe-concert diva, she has seen everything, haunted everything and gone into everything in depth.

    The filthy and superb slut of digs and hovels who are at some other time had been Messaline on all the squares of Suburre, she had been in modern Paris where her buggy is as well known in the large lonely avenues of the Gobelins district as in the stinking alleys of the Villette. Her mask belongs to a caricature, with its thin profile and skinny bones, its depraved eyes of a schoolgirl who has read Virgil and Theocritus too young, her hips and flat chest belong no more to Forain than to Lunel; they belong to the public, as public as her acts and thoughts and words with their punch and her angry bored insolence, which has kept the street gossips fed for then years. In turn a kept woman and a woman who kept, she has squandered fortunes, melted down millions in the crucible of here boredom, flaunted with actresses, clow and princesses and, as did Pauline Borghese long ago in the studio of Canova, she has posed in the nude and nothing else in the cruel novels of Rachilde and Mendes.

    If only she was amused by it, but not even that. It's through weakness, by boredom that this jaded soul has been lost, that incurable and despairing boredom which is the real secret plague of her life and which has made her cry out and proclaim loud and clear throughout the world the vices she doesn't even have, the elegant anomalies that for a while it was done to flaunt in the upper circles where one amuses oneself, the vices of posing and parading that made her famous in the Acacias as well as in Montmartre, on the sports beaches and in the spas where one plays, and which from scandal to scandal, from guardian  to divorce, and from asylum to police court, where she almost sat down in the middle of the ninth chamber, have brought her to where she is now, today, to the nervous breakdown, to morphine, to the cerebral lesions which make her mistake cruelty for love and mix loving sadism with the macabre.

    Oh! the bad wine of strong emotions, the kind whose intoxication stunts the will and prepares the way for depressives and maniacs, woe betide he who lives on others' nerves much more than his own, and whose senses only awaken with the violent commotions of the brain.

    And that is where she is now.
    After having slipped as far down as sadism and trying to revive the revolting insipidness of daily joys by the salt taste of a drop of blood, she has arrived at the macabre: and when the girlfriend whom she feeds (for she now has only platonic friendships) senses that the purse of this miserable, woman is tightening when she hears calls for loans, what does the gentle Hippolyte do to soften and bring back to her that affection which is all the more generous now she is aflame?

    Quick, a word to the undertaker and an order for funeral invitations and the card announcing the death of the less-loved one is immediately sent to the boarding-house of the Soul of Dirt who unfolds it, shudders, throws on her otter coat and runs, hurrying to the hotel of the deceased who is already laid out in silver lame sheets, with undertakers and hearse in front of the door.

    Soul of Dirt, demented, climbs the two floors, flings open the doors, and in the loved one's boudoir, transformed into a mortuary chamber, finds Hippolyte lying in the coffin, in a robe of white silk, candles all around the burial wreaths and bouquets of white lilac, arrangements of violets and of mauve orchids in the gloom of mourning crape; in short all the decor of a sumptuous death.

    The deceased is herself artistically made-up, already decomposing under her white theatre powder, with adroit touches of blush: the hands are as rigid as those of a corpse and the faint smell of phenol floats through the bedroom; the coroner has just left and all they were waiting for before nailing down the coffin was the arrival of madame. At this point Soul of Dirt comes to life, falls to her knees, sobs, with kisses, tears and sweat she wets the painted cheeks and the hands of the deceased, waters down the make-up, creases the shroud, and Hippolyte, gently awakening, props herself up in the coffin and smiles hello again to the reconquered Soul of Dirt: a small scene of theatre, a theatre from beyond the grave, which is renewed three times a month and which, although tricked and organised in advance, delights Soul of Dirt with a childish joy.

    Then she feels her heart.

    Wednesday, the 9th of November, 1892

    Jean Lorrain